Monday, April 30, 2012

428后 - 鼓励自己

心好乱,好烦,但烦得来似乎又不能做什么,真讨厌这种无奈的感觉。真的,很讨厌。
心很伤,很痛,不停的问自己为什么会这样?一直在等,但还是没有答案,答案在我心里?

“贪” - 每个人心里,都有那一点点“贪念”,否则也用不着这么努力工作,我们贪好吃的,好住的,好玩的,所以我们努力。只要不是贪不劳而获,贪别人的财物就好。

赌徒贪,结果倾家荡产;政客贪,结果失信于民。这样就真的很不好。你说,是不是??

马来西亚下一步往哪里?改变的路虽然仍见崎岖,参与的人却也越见庞大。告诉自己,不可以放弃,要继续勇敢地走下去。为了自己,为了我所爱的人,还有许多和我一样的人,我一定要继续相信自己的坚持,坚持自己所相信的。不可以逃避,要勇于面对!

改变的路上有我和你,好好加油!!

Sunday, April 29, 2012

叫人好沉重

428 - 会在我脑海里很长的一段时间。什么时候开始和平集会成了警民对抗?什么时候开始我们失去了发表意见的机会和管道?什么时候开始主流媒体完全由执政党掌控?是我离开得太久?还是自己一直没有意识到事态多严重?

关于709我听的看的不少,关于催泪弹早有心理准备。428那天催泪弹使我落泪,但很快就过去了。接下来几天我的泪不是因为催泪弹,而是因为随之而来的消息,让我的心情跌到谷底 - 警民冲突,有人受伤入院,有人被邀请回警局了,有人在混乱中跌到,因催泪弹而呕吐,晕倒。由428那一天起一想起这许多许多,我还是忍不住地流泪,同时又暗骂自己好没用,动不动就哭。

然后开始看到面子书上其他人的留言,原来我不孤单,好多人都一样为此落泪。改变原来真的要付出好大的代价。好想逃避,但逃避并不能解决问题。我得努力振作起来,和其他人一起继续努力。总有一天我们会成功,我愿意相信。邪不能胜正!!加油!

Tuesday, April 10, 2012

Living in Malaysia again....

Slowly friends around me started to accept the fact that I am staying in the country for REAL. Many find it difficult to believe but it is true, just trust me, please... I suppose I do not have a very convincing track record to prove my word, well well....

After my last long stint in Australia, I came back last year in April but did not stay too long as I joined friends to Nepal, then continue my solo trip to India (solo yet again, and India my dear is not the best place, I know I know! India really is not such a bad place, India continues to surprise you everytime you blink your eyes, haha.. ) and 2 months at home later I flew to Qatar for a 2 months visit and finally flew home early Dec. So, have been home for 4 months, and rest assure am feeling totally fine and at ease. No urge to leave again, though I must say I do miss my time overseas, but it's also about time to start doing something with future in mind, I guess....

So I started a business with a friend, an old friend who chooses to believe in my capability even though I have only been wandering around country to country for the past errrr 5++ years. (Is it really that long???) He approached me with a business proposal and offer letter, pretty hard to refuse I have to say. Besides, it's a new venture new experience, plenty of challenges lies ahead, but isn't life about overcoming challenges?? And I sure have nothing to lose! So deal signed, I am now a hardworking city person and have made up my mind about staying for a while. Let's not guess how long that would be, as long as it takes I think.

So what do I love about being home?? Many countries I visited are beautiful in their own unique way, I love it there - scenery, people, food, but no place makes me feel as home as Malaysia. The only place I can really call home. Family, friends, food, languages being spoken, scenery, everything is so familiar and welcoming, all these makes me feel so happy to be home.

Having said that, I must say I wish for some improvement in Malaysia. I still do not like the traffic in city, I always wonder if the road system or the people is causing such bad traffic, I miss the courteous drivers overseas (not everywhere but some countries do have better drivers) ; the political situation makes me feel sad and am really hoping that things will change soon ; Our monotonous weather can be a little dull sometimes but not having to wrap yourself up immediately the moment you come out of hot shower is actually something I really missed when am in cold country (it's strange how these little things matters so much sometimes) ; More smoke free zone especially in dining places and many more. I hope I will eventually see the improvements am hoping for.

And last but not least, I miss the "hug" culture overseas, where friends give each other a hug when we meet, we give everyone a hug in the morning, we give someone who is sad a hug, we hug a friend when we are tired, makes you feel supported, I really wish we could adopt this, that would be so great!!

Great place to be

Great place to be
If only I can wake up to this view everyday.