Friday, May 4, 2012

生气

真的好生气,好想好想打人出气(没有啦,不是真的打人啦,我又不是警察,哪有乱打人的?),打沙包也是可以,或者把门用力一关,或者把桌上的东西全扫到地上,或者大吼一声,也许可消消心中的怒气。可是我现在人在购物中心,无法发泄,只好用想象力,想像自己现在身在海边,对着大海大吼。

生气时想起多年前看过“莫生气”这段话。其中印象深刻的有“人家气我我不气,我若气时中他计”。可是这关乎国事,我真能不生气吗??政府开始拆苏丹街了,完全不理人民的反抗,我们的声音,他们装作听不见,太可恶了。可我们除了现身反对之外,什么也不能做,只能呆呆地让神手继续破坏?改写历史他们做了不少,现在又来摧毁历史,真的无药可救的政府,真的不能要的政府。

继续反抗在所难免,但真的没有其他事可以做吗?好无奈。。

Wednesday, May 2, 2012

病了

天不怕地不怕,就怕生病。最讨厌生病了,也许你会说没有一个人爱生病,可是我还是要说, 就当发发牢骚吧。

前几天开始发现身体开始发热,拼命喝水,又褒了两次薏米消暑,但都不管用。前天半夜醒来开始咳嗽,接下来是喉咙痛,声音开始沙哑,再加上不晓得什么时候弄伤的背,导致呼吸有点儿困难,好辛苦!好想一直睡着直到好起来为止。

开始希望有人关心,多么希望现在是住在家里有妈妈煮好吃的,那种感觉多么幸福啊。今天自己蒸了鸡蛋,虽不算失败,但就没妈妈蒸的好吃,也许一半是心理作用吧。

请病魔快快离我而去吧。。。








选择

没有无法取代的人,没有无法淡忘的事。
无法取代,只因你不愿放手。
无法淡忘,只因你选择记着。

放手不代表 从来不曾拥有
忘记不代表 从来不曾发生

放手才能重新把握
忘记才能重新开始

执着
有时推你向前 有时阻你前进

人生每一天都是新生

懂得选择性的执着
才能活出有意思又精彩的人生

Tuesday, May 1, 2012

简单人生

喜欢- 走走看看
喜欢- 分享故事
喜欢- 看海听海
喜欢- 爬山观山
喜欢- 相聚说笑
喜欢- 开心渡日

人生,不过如此。


Monday, April 30, 2012

428后 - 鼓励自己

心好乱,好烦,但烦得来似乎又不能做什么,真讨厌这种无奈的感觉。真的,很讨厌。
心很伤,很痛,不停的问自己为什么会这样?一直在等,但还是没有答案,答案在我心里?

“贪” - 每个人心里,都有那一点点“贪念”,否则也用不着这么努力工作,我们贪好吃的,好住的,好玩的,所以我们努力。只要不是贪不劳而获,贪别人的财物就好。

赌徒贪,结果倾家荡产;政客贪,结果失信于民。这样就真的很不好。你说,是不是??

马来西亚下一步往哪里?改变的路虽然仍见崎岖,参与的人却也越见庞大。告诉自己,不可以放弃,要继续勇敢地走下去。为了自己,为了我所爱的人,还有许多和我一样的人,我一定要继续相信自己的坚持,坚持自己所相信的。不可以逃避,要勇于面对!

改变的路上有我和你,好好加油!!

Sunday, April 29, 2012

叫人好沉重

428 - 会在我脑海里很长的一段时间。什么时候开始和平集会成了警民对抗?什么时候开始我们失去了发表意见的机会和管道?什么时候开始主流媒体完全由执政党掌控?是我离开得太久?还是自己一直没有意识到事态多严重?

关于709我听的看的不少,关于催泪弹早有心理准备。428那天催泪弹使我落泪,但很快就过去了。接下来几天我的泪不是因为催泪弹,而是因为随之而来的消息,让我的心情跌到谷底 - 警民冲突,有人受伤入院,有人被邀请回警局了,有人在混乱中跌到,因催泪弹而呕吐,晕倒。由428那一天起一想起这许多许多,我还是忍不住地流泪,同时又暗骂自己好没用,动不动就哭。

然后开始看到面子书上其他人的留言,原来我不孤单,好多人都一样为此落泪。改变原来真的要付出好大的代价。好想逃避,但逃避并不能解决问题。我得努力振作起来,和其他人一起继续努力。总有一天我们会成功,我愿意相信。邪不能胜正!!加油!

Tuesday, April 10, 2012

Living in Malaysia again....

Slowly friends around me started to accept the fact that I am staying in the country for REAL. Many find it difficult to believe but it is true, just trust me, please... I suppose I do not have a very convincing track record to prove my word, well well....

After my last long stint in Australia, I came back last year in April but did not stay too long as I joined friends to Nepal, then continue my solo trip to India (solo yet again, and India my dear is not the best place, I know I know! India really is not such a bad place, India continues to surprise you everytime you blink your eyes, haha.. ) and 2 months at home later I flew to Qatar for a 2 months visit and finally flew home early Dec. So, have been home for 4 months, and rest assure am feeling totally fine and at ease. No urge to leave again, though I must say I do miss my time overseas, but it's also about time to start doing something with future in mind, I guess....

So I started a business with a friend, an old friend who chooses to believe in my capability even though I have only been wandering around country to country for the past errrr 5++ years. (Is it really that long???) He approached me with a business proposal and offer letter, pretty hard to refuse I have to say. Besides, it's a new venture new experience, plenty of challenges lies ahead, but isn't life about overcoming challenges?? And I sure have nothing to lose! So deal signed, I am now a hardworking city person and have made up my mind about staying for a while. Let's not guess how long that would be, as long as it takes I think.

So what do I love about being home?? Many countries I visited are beautiful in their own unique way, I love it there - scenery, people, food, but no place makes me feel as home as Malaysia. The only place I can really call home. Family, friends, food, languages being spoken, scenery, everything is so familiar and welcoming, all these makes me feel so happy to be home.

Having said that, I must say I wish for some improvement in Malaysia. I still do not like the traffic in city, I always wonder if the road system or the people is causing such bad traffic, I miss the courteous drivers overseas (not everywhere but some countries do have better drivers) ; the political situation makes me feel sad and am really hoping that things will change soon ; Our monotonous weather can be a little dull sometimes but not having to wrap yourself up immediately the moment you come out of hot shower is actually something I really missed when am in cold country (it's strange how these little things matters so much sometimes) ; More smoke free zone especially in dining places and many more. I hope I will eventually see the improvements am hoping for.

And last but not least, I miss the "hug" culture overseas, where friends give each other a hug when we meet, we give everyone a hug in the morning, we give someone who is sad a hug, we hug a friend when we are tired, makes you feel supported, I really wish we could adopt this, that would be so great!!

Great place to be

Great place to be
If only I can wake up to this view everyday.